CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR WEDDING

Recently, my best friend got married.
I am now enjoying my 3 MONTHS holidays at home. I have plenty of things to do in my mind, but it got distracted by my driving class. Still tak lepas lagi exam untuk dapat LESEN L so sebab tu plan nak cari kerja part-time tak dapet nak dilaksanakan lagi.

Okay, tepat hari Jumaat iaitu 24 October 2014, kawan baik aku telah selamat dinikahkan dengan sekali lafaz je. Aku tumpang bahagia untuk dia, dunia dan akhirat. Aku doakan walaupun dia kahwin pada usia yang masih muda, aku harap dia dapat laksanakan tanggungjawab dia dengan baik.
Haha even aku pun kena bebel dulu nak masuk dapur masak, kemas rumah dan etc. Tapi jauh di sudut hati aku, dia boleh, mun matang lebih dari usia mun syerah, so banyakkan bersabar kalau ada masalah rumahtangga nanti. Aku sentiasa ada kalu mun perlukan tempat untuk berkongsi masalah.

Bila tengok kawan baik sendiri dah jadi bini orang ni, aku terfikir pulak. Aku ni boleh ke nak kawin ? Ah kusut. Benda yang aku selalu buat mesti menghampakan, barang salah letak, careless, pemalas, otak tak pernah nak fokus, belaja lagi lah lambat betui nak paham lecturer aku ngaja. Hmm yang aku tahu buat, online mengadap pc tengok korea, ni haa blogging, then main instagram. Tak productive langsung. Dua tiga hari ni rajin lah jugak masuk dapur basuh pinggan tolong mak masak, tapi mandi pulak tak. Hahaha apa nak jadi ko ni lily woi, solat je tapi tak mandi. Aku ibarat kobau dah yang tak suka mandi, eh kobau pun mandi apa, mandi kobau tak sabun at least mandi. Tapi aku tak mandi langsung apa citer ? Tak malu pulak share dekat sini ? Haha. Ah persetankan, ni jela cara aku nak hayati cuti 3 bulan woi. Hang dok diam jangan banyak bunyik.

Well, aku rasa aku akan selalu update blog aku ni, samada luahan rasa, cerita, tips ka ? Haha ada ke orang nak baca kalau aku post tips dekat sini ? Perasan betul. Wei korang jangan ingat aku ni useless sangat tau, semalas-malas aku pun, aku tahu gak baking cake setakat moist coklat kek tu aku tahu buat lah. Eleh setakat cake seketul je dah bising. Eh okay lahtu, dari tak tahu pape. Aku ingat nanti before kawin, aku kena rajin masuk dapur. Mati lah nanti kalau mak mertua suruh masak, aku goreng telur je. Haih tak berbaloi langsung kalau mintak hantaran mahai tapi tak reti masak.

Insha Allah, banyak resipi boleh try buat ni. Rasanya apa masakan first aku nak try buat eh ? Boleh kasi suggestion tak ? Haha goreng nasi, mi ke apa aku tahu buat. Hah sup ke, best jugak. Hmm bab masak-masak ni, kakak aku pun selalu cakap, sekarang ni memang lah aku tak reti and rasa malas nak masuk dapur, tapi once kau dah kawin nanti, ada suami, kau sendiri akan automatically masuk dapur dan rasa nak masak untuk keluarga kau. Maybe, I hope one day it is going to happen like what my sister said. So equation dia sama lah jugak macam best friend aku, even dia kahwin awal dan aku rasa dia masih macam perangai tak matang gegirls bising macam aku, dia akan adapt dengan suasana sekarang yg dia tu dah jadi bini orang.

Tipu lah, kalau aku kata aku tak sedih langsung dia kahwin, bukan aku cemburu sebab aku tak kawin lagi ke apa, tapi aku sedih lepas ni kita-kita takleh hangout macam biasa dah. Kalau dulu, aku selalu tido rumah dia, cari dia tumpang tido kat rumah sewa nun di KL sana, now takleh dah cemtu. Even malam after akad nikah rumah dia pun aku dah rasa segan nak tido situ. After that moment, I finally realised, kawan tak kekal lama, yang ada bakal pasangan hidup kita yg menemani kita hingga hujung masa dan keluarga. Maybe, I should consider proposal my sister to get married early. At least ada peneman, supporter dari segi kewangan, etc. Allah juga dah menjanjkan yg perkahwinan bakal membuka banyak pintu rezeki yg tak pernah kau bayangkan ada contohnya anak. Berdoa, moga dikurniakan jodoh yang baik, dan aku juga doakan mung, Syahirah Nabila dikurniakan suami yang soleh.

Aku takleh bayangkan situasi ada di tempat mun, everything kena buat sendiri, anak sulung, no father to help from financial assistance of course, and problem di malam akad nikah. Aku harap dengan adanya aku and all the girls that night, can reduce your worries. Just one thing for you to remember my friend, Allah takkan uji seseorang lebih dari apa yang dia dapat tanggung. 

That is all for this entry, this post basically is for my BFF Forever even selit cerita hidup aku sikit.
Hope she's doing well and cepat-cepat buleh baby deh.
Assalamualaikum.

A BLACK JUBAH AND COLOURFUL BALLOON

I just finished my final exam. And this picture actually to commemorate the end of my struggling years in Centre of Foundation Studies at International Islamic University University Malaysia. 

Alhamdulillah, I could not be more grateful than this ever. I hope my result is okay and I can continue my studies at the main campus, Gombak as a Bachelor of English (BENL). If I have rezeki, I think I want to minor in Human Science, Insha Allah. Pray for me okay girls ? 

I hope there is no more repeated paper and extended semester. 

Ya Allah, only to You I put my belief on. Now, I have 3 months holiday and I still cannot figured up what I want to do whether I want find to find part time job ? or plan another business to kill my boredom ? or just let the 3 months wasted and do nothing ? Haha. 

Its like snapping some photo overseas. Haha beautiful background with colourful balloon. 

Truly made my day, subhanaAllah. 

OKTOBER masih tidak berlalu pergi. Means that birthday I masih dikira bulan ni, genap 20 tahun dah. Walau birthday tahun ni tak disurprise oleh sesape pun, aku tetap bersyukur atas apa Allah dah bagi aku buat untuk setahun ni. Merata tempat aku gi tahun ni, sweet escape ever. 

Paling happy and memorable, bercuti ke pulau perhentian bersama BFF kesayangan dekra dan kumadah, Aku sure masa tu adalah masa paling happy kitorang, unlike nowadays. Mereka dekat Gombak dan aku masih di Petaling Jaya. Aku harap relationship kita tak berubah macam dulu, kawan. Korang please stop bergaduh. Dikli kesedihan. 

Tahun lepas birthday aku, dekra and kuma ada. Now, everyone is busy with their own life mana ada masa nak layan aku dah. Apapun, kalau najwa baca belog aku, aku nak cakap terima kasih atas hadiah dia kasi. First gift I ever received this year. Thank you so much. 

Dulu, aku still ingat, masa form 5 SEMUA ORANG buat muka sepesen je, konon tak tahu haritu birthday aku, 5K1 takde sorang pun wish beday aku. Sedih betul rasa, tapi redha je takkan aku nak gi heboh dekat semua orang haritu birthday aku ? Terdesak attention pulak. Tapi-tapi, tapi kan sebenarnya dorang plan nak kasi surprise. Malam tu kitorang ada kelas tambahan Geografi, cikgu aku sir Hassan pun komplot sekali. Roomate aku dekat asrama semua macam tanak cakap dengan aku. Pelik gak, semalam okay je apehal tetiba harini semua nak moody, dahlaa tinggal aku sorang dekat bilik sebab aku lambat. Tapi nasib baik lah, kawan baik aku Mc Long aka Suzaila Akma ada. Dia jalan dengan aku sampai ke kelas and sampai je kat sana, BAAAAAAAMMMMMM.

Aku dikerumuni classmate aku nyanyi HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILY sambil sorang kawan aku yang sponsored kek aka Azuna Izzati pegang kek and lilin untuk aku tiup ahh most unforgettable moment ever in ma life. Derang nak lempaq tepung asalnya tapi takleh sebab kitorang still nak kena masuk kelas kan sebab SPM nak dekat  dah. Rindunya semua orang di 5k1.

Syawal, Zarul, Syahirah Nabila, Mc Long, Huda, Elia, Mirah, Pokya, Jame, Buniyamin, Ray, Rizalman, Syikin aka Kisin, Farah Jusoh aka Pok Suh, Shazlin Saibon, Zaima, Ty Odd, Ty Loh, Fahmi, Eddy, Kumin, Pokwe, Madu, Asnida aka Kak Chik, Ika, Yuni, Dibah Fatini, Juna this post was dedicated to YOU ALL. Thank You. 

Tahun hadapan masih ada, harap aku makin matang dalam membuat keputusan dan sukses selalu. Semoga berbahagia di samping keluarga dan kawan-kawan. Terima kasih untuk semua wish beday tahun ni, dan tak lupa juga, a billion trillion ucapan terima kasih to my mother sudi lahirkan anakanda ke dunia. 

Tanpa ma, sapolah ore, ore saye ko ma. 

That is all for this entry, see yah assalamualaikun.

THE PROMISE

The promise between two people should have three main things as a pillar in a relationship which is love, respect and support.
What is the use, he loves you very much but you only have a slight feeling over him. The exact word, sympathy. You push yourself to love this very generous, kind and humble man until finally he had really believe that you love him, but it is not. You don't want him to put any more hope, suddenly you realized that you need to end it. You felt terribly sorry for him and then you left him.
Without words, without any signs.

How could you ? How could you after all the years had passed ? All his efforts. He was there when you are in trouble, willing to help. He was there when you are sad, when nobody is around, when you did not want your parents to know about it, when you need someone to talk to, after the creator. He was there to cherish you, to make you laugh, to make you smile.

The memory, the conversations, all gone now.

I, during my school year, I always surrounded by people, my own friends who are often involved in discipline problems, and to be truth, I once used to be expelled from school haha only my close friends know this, and we had promised ourselves to never telling people about it. But I, spilled the beans over here, hahaha who cares ? Nah but so sorry girls, I wont tell you the reason why and please do not ask.

Since that year, I try to change myself. Live life as a better person who can benefits other people. I focused on my studies, aiming for better result and alhamdulillah, I do quite well. I got 7A in PMR not to be brag about it, I am just sharing my experience. For SPM, I got 8A but I never got an A for math's subject. But if you have good result in school but cannot strive for A in university year, what is the point ?  mmmm why the heck Im telling you this ? Omagad.

The point is, I change myself because I want to have a good person to have me. Not that the one I left for is not good enough, I do noticed his intention towards me is beyond what I could ask for, willing to see my parents to ask my hand in marriage but I am sorry. I am not ready yet to have a commitment. My own room would be in disaster everyday if I felt like I dont want to do anthing that day so I cant see any points of being married to someone and bear the responsibilities as a wife when I cant properly utilize myself ?

I believe that Allah wont give anyone something unless he or she is ready to accept it.

I let you to have 2 options, whether to wait for me or you can have another woman marrying you. If you want to wait, just wait. I will tell you when I feel that I am ready. But if you think that you cannot wait any more longer, then I accept the facts that we dont have any jodoh to be together. I redha if you choose the second option.

I will strive for A in DEGREE, huh insha Allah. Pray for me girls.
That is all for today entry, maybe when I read this again after two or three years ahead, I will laugh haha maybe with someone beside me cuddling. Omagad seriusly ? HAHA till then, assalamualaikum.

VOLUME 3 SOMETHINK SHIRT

I am too lazy to edit photo this one brisk post. So sorry.

I am bored studying, so I open up my laptop to read up my favourite blogger update. I love to read update on Aquila Style website. Not only about fashion, what is trending style this season, and a lot more about fashion world. I also get to read on a few article about faith, health and tips from diverse of writer around the world. 

Then, I remember to update ma blog. A few photo I think can to be upload. So here it is. 

Photo from ma latest short vacay to malacca last few weeks.

Enjoy girls ;)

Tak sabar nak habis sem seriouslyyyyyyyyyyyyy. 

HAPPY GIRL ON HER BIRTHDAY

I DONT CARE. 

I MISS BLOGGING SO BAD.

I MUST UPDATE.

So here  it is, my craziness starts to gear up again. Haha, well I seriously need to update yes I have said it already I miss blogging sho bad. Plus, I don't consume too much time to write up a blog post. Ten minutes would be fine if the internet is super duper fast. Here, my update of what I am doing on my study week. Haha, not studying but procrastinating snapping some photo yeah right. 

The photo during my visit to Malacca had been left behind, I will find a way to upload it after this. But, this one, need to have a quick update because I love the outfit, the sky so blue above me, and the weather is doing fine. So, here it is the photo have been upload on my instagram yeah actually a lot more on Viscaria Pictures instagram. A photo courtesy I would say. 

Me wearing NYX Matte Pink Colour Lipstick. Sho In Loved With It. Mwah Kiss Ma Lips Baby.

A happy birthday girl turns 20 today at 6th October. 

Nice weather keep me happy as I can have a good photo taken. I would be very sad if I have prepared myself to wear a cute outfit to snap some photo, then suddenly the rain came. Mood will be seriously upside down nobody can stand when I am in rage. Its not that I questioned why Allah give rain when after that I know we have a rainbow to look into, but please let me take an OOTD first, yes no ? Hehehe. Silly Lily. 

I guess that is all for today, happy bornday to maself yeay 

 im 20 now. Thanks to who ever had wished me have a bless day ahead be a happy and good muslimah. Private messages me on Facebook, really appreciated it even you guys dont give me presents, yes a big fat THANK YOU ALLS. I lafffffffffffff you to the moon and back. Blessed you ma sissy and bro-in law had treated me sushi this evening for ma birthday. And oh, ma niece sang me a sweet HAPPY BIRTHDAY SONG THIS MORNING. Ahaha, made me smile right after I woke up from bed. Its just perfect to start a day. Even it is just a simple celebrations, it is everything to make a memory.